Ellison,
I tell you every day how much I love you and you just smile
at me. I know you do not really
know what I am telling you (one day you will) but hopefully you feel the love
that your daddy and I have for you.
You are going through a phase where you will not sleep unless I am laying next to you. I love watching your sweet face drift off to sleep. You are so content. I tell you that I love you then as well. I tell you probably 1000 times a day.
I never knew how hard it would be to be a mama. Anytime I am away from you a piece of my heart is gone too. I miss you every day when I am at work. I hope that you don’t resent me for working but look at me as a role model. I pray for this every day because some days (most days) I think that staying home with you is where I should be. Everyone says that leaving you gets easier but I have not reached that point yet. I wish I could spend every moment of everyday with you. You are my life, little buddy. I know that this kind of stuff will embarrass you someday so I guess I need to get it out of my system now.
You are going through a phase where you will not sleep unless I am laying next to you. I love watching your sweet face drift off to sleep. You are so content. I tell you that I love you then as well. I tell you probably 1000 times a day.
I never knew how hard it would be to be a mama. Anytime I am away from you a piece of my heart is gone too. I miss you every day when I am at work. I hope that you don’t resent me for working but look at me as a role model. I pray for this every day because some days (most days) I think that staying home with you is where I should be. Everyone says that leaving you gets easier but I have not reached that point yet. I wish I could spend every moment of everyday with you. You are my life, little buddy. I know that this kind of stuff will embarrass you someday so I guess I need to get it out of my system now.
You are so very loved Ellison.
Love
Mama
Love this. I feel the same way as you. It's so hard leaving my little girl. Today was worse since she was awake when I was and cried cuz I was leaving. I don't believe it will get easier. All I do is count the hours down to when I get to go home and hold her again.
ReplyDeleteSo sweet - I am sure she can feel your love, even though she doesn't know it yet. It may embarrass her someday - but she will also appreciate it all so much as she gets older. She's lucky to have you as a mama!
ReplyDeleteI feel like you stole the words from my own mouth. I love this post. Everyday I struggle with wanting to stay home with D and I just never thought I would ever want to be or consider being a stay at home mom. Of course, I continue to go to work and that's okay too. You are such a good momma and I'm sure Ellison knows how loved he is!
ReplyDeleteSO sweet!!! good mama.
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ReplyDeleteSuch an adorable photo and sweet letter!! You're such a wonderful mama! xo
ReplyDeleteSo sweet! I completely agree. Working is so hard! I go back to work in less than a week after maternity leave with my second. I don't want to leave my babies!
ReplyDelete-Tara
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This is such a sweet letter! You are a great mom and Ellison is lucky to have you! He will definitely look to you as a role model who obviously places an importance on education and career!
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